Wasted dream of a single night
Lights out curled up in a ball after that phone call. Thoughts screaming in my head. Jack in one hand colt in the other trying to make sense of the confusion inside. Depression turns to rage then back to depression again. The burden too much to bear. The sheer weight of it causes all rational thought to leave me. Time holds still, feels like eternity is mocking me not letting me heal. Satan stands beside me taunting. I try and think as I load the clip but my mind is clouded by insanity. Vision fuzzy. That feeling of cold steel resting against my temple brings forth a glimpse of peace. All I have to do is sqeeze an I'm free from this torment. Just one thought to do as the tears run free. All this chaos in such a short amount of time. Where's the Jack I need a drink! Fuck that do it sober you pussy. Fine then pull the hammer back, take a breath. Let the memories of life flow. Every memory of life, childhood dreams and love past. How did it come to this? What will happen after I'm gone? Does it matter. Fuck this shit Dad I'm coming home! Ready, then go. Click.....Aww fuck I forgot to chamber a round. You dumbass. Ok, time for a drink then we will do it right. The wasted dream of a single night.
By anonymous
By Matthew Branton
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