I'll never say goodbye

You always liked the cold so it makes sense you left us in the winter to go on your final journey. Its funny how alike yet different we are. I never got to grieve you, that would mean you're gone and I never want to say goodbye. Id rather say I'll see you later. Every time I drive and push it i feel you there with me, like the good old days. It's getting harder though. The memory fading I find myself pushing harder. I can't go to hard or I'll find myself making the same last journey as you. Part of me doesn't care anymore though. I wish I could say goodbye but I'm not strong enough, you deserve to remain forever, as you were, as you graced this earth like the suns embrace. And so I remain for reasons I don't understand, wearing a smile, to fit in among the masses when the truth is I'm only alive when I push it and I just want to drive, for you, for us, forever.....