Sunday, December 9, 2012

In the darkness

In the darkness

The fluidity of its speed surprises even me. It's ghostly fingers scratching at my existence with a vengeance I've never seen. Peeling away the layers of my heart and soul the sadness is replaced with anger, and the hurt replaced with a rage so pure it surely must have escaped the bowels of hell! I try and resist but I'm too weak and welcome anything that replaces the horrendous grief which has consumed my waking existence. Soon the darkness has done its job like a master clock maker. The precision it displayed in recreating me rivaled the precision of the stars. I am no longer in control, restraint given way to thoughtless action. All I see is red for the streets run deep in the blood of humanity. Each drop for every lie, for every painful emotion I've experienced. I have brought balance through the extinction of the human race. I no longer feel pain, nor sadness, or joy. I have become as vacant as the darkness that consumed me and as I stand in the middle of the street, blood to my knees I feel it is not complete for there is still me. I am as guilty for my suffering as humanity and without another thought I see the blood flowing down my neck and chest becoming one with the river of blood I stand in. As I slowly collapse in the darkness I realize that now I truly feel....nothing. 

By Matthew branton

Monday, June 4, 2012

I'll never say goodbye

You always liked the cold so it makes sense you left us in the winter to go on your final journey. Its funny how alike yet different we are. I never got to grieve you, that would mean you're gone and I never want to say goodbye. Id rather say I'll see you later. Every time I drive and push it i feel you there with me, like the good old days. It's getting harder though. The memory fading I find myself pushing harder. I can't go to hard or I'll find myself making the same last journey as you. Part of me doesn't care anymore though. I wish I could say goodbye but I'm not strong enough, you deserve to remain forever, as you were, as you graced this earth like the suns embrace. And so I remain for reasons I don't understand, wearing a smile, to fit in among the masses when the truth is I'm only alive when I push it and I just want to drive, for you, for us, forever.....