Purity

I came to a realization tonight. Whether it's tantric or from meditation is unclear. What is clear is I've never felt so free and serene. You see there are many forms of love in this plain of existance but the pure forms of love come with no labels or expectations. If you can love without being a typical human and expecting something in return then you are on another plain. Then comes something which many including me fear which is to be "in love" with someone. Should we tell them or should we keep it to ourselfs to not cause the other person stress? Months I've pondered what to do and if my actions were pure of heart and I realized that to be pure of heart and in love is simply that. It's how "I" feel and there is nothing wrong nor is there any malice to it. It is simply me being in love with the most glorious being I know without expecting anything in return or putting a silly label on it. That is pure, that is free. Cause I'm loving her without caging her, hence I'm not caging me. So my actions by telling her are just and pure and the first time in my life I've felt I've reached a new plane of love. Why? Cause I've finally understood love in it's basic and extrodinary forms. I love and am in love because it's my feelings and I expect nothing. This my friend is serenity. And I thank her for letting me be me and the wisdom she's shared which has helped me reach another plain. 

By Matthew branton

As I dance in the valley of purgatory straddling the wall that seperates darkness and light I can't help but wonder why I must choose a side. I know the darkness in the most intimate fashion more then any can truly comprehend. Yet, the light and love of eternity I've seen with my very own eyes. One need not have faith when they've already seen the cursed beauty of heaven. Coexisting beyond our comprehension we are both for we can not exist without the other. Why should I ignore the ravaging lust of darkness and only act upon the good? Is it for the promises I've made or for retribution of my earlier days? Do I dare think that in the grand scheme of time and space the minute reprocutions of my actions leave a scar upon this plain? Silly to ponder yet I truly wonder "what if". What if I lacked honor and integrity? What if I hadn't made the promises? Would I be me, or would I bring my dreams to life and blanket humanity with the ashes of there brethren? Truly a shame then, that we will never really know, for I'm stuck straddling the wall of purgatory between heaven and hell, waiting for her to choose....

By Matthew branton